Sunday, April 5, 2009

Prayers Needed

I got one of the worst phone calls this morning. The ones where someone asks you if you are sitting down before they continue the conversation. I actually yelled at my sister (sorry Faith) to just tell me because I didn't have time to sit down. Needless to say, after she told me I immediately found the time to find a chair before I found the ground. The kind of phone call where every scenario starts running through your mind that you can barely concentrate on the words coming out of their mouths. That kind of phone call.

I found out this morning that my brother, who is only 27, was found dead in his house this morning. We do not know all the details yet, but my BIL had gone over there to spend some time with him and found him laying on the ground. He tried to wake him up, but quickly realized that he had been gone for a while. They are speculating that he either had a heart attack or that the infection he had been trying to fight had gone into his blood stream and caused problems with his heart.

He had been to the doctor's office on Friday with numbness and pain down his left arm, as well as facial numbness and slurred speech. They dismissed him and told him to take some pain meds and call them in the morning. When he called to tell them it was worse, they told him to make an appointment for Monday. Well, he didn't make it till Monday.

There are so many questions and not enough answers today. Does my mom fly back to North Carolina or just deal with things from here? Will my SIL, who was seperated from my brother, be cooperative and respectful of my brother's wishes to be brought back to CA? Should I take the kids out of school and go down to San Diego to spend time with my mom even though there is nothing for me to do? Or should I keep their lives as normal as possible and just stay here until I am needed to do something? What do I do with all this sadness and anger?

I have not seen my brother for almost 3 years and was looking forward to him coming to CA in just TEN DAYS!!!! 10 days!! That was how close I was to seeing my brother, niece and nephew and now I will never see my brother again. Why did he have to go at such a young age? My dad passed away at a young age of 50 and now my only brother at an even younger age of 27. He has left behind a 5 and 3 year old. How do you tell a 5 & 3 year old that their daddy is gone? He was the best daddy and everything he did was for those kids. I am just waiting for someone to call me and tell me this is all a big joke, though I know it is not, I just wish I didn't have to face the fact that he is gone forever. I am sad. I am angry. I am numb.

I love him very much!!!!


  1. oh my goodness. I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family (as well as his) during this difficult time. Please know the Lord is with you!

  2. Oh Joy, I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how you must be feeling. We will pray and be thinking of you and your entire family.

  3. Oh Joy, I am so heart is breaking for you and your family...our thoughts and prayers are with you all...Please let me know if there is anything at all you need!! I am only a phone call away!

  4. Joy, I am so very sorry. I know there are no words that can help during this time. Just know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  5. Joy, my heart just breaks for you and your family! I'm praying for peace and strength for you during this time.

  6. Joy,
    I am so sorry about David. I am still in shock myself. Mom was over when she got the call from grandma. I will truly miss David. Throughout the day, I kept thinking about him and some of the funny things David did when we were all together. He was such a great person and he will be dearly missed by all in the family.
    David is in a great place right now with Uncle Dave. I take comfort in knowing that he is safe and he is with Uncle Dave in a happy place.
    I will keep my California family in my prayers. If you, your sisters, or Aunt Kathy need anything, please let me know.


  7. Joy, oh my goodness. I am in shock just reading your post. I am so terribly sorry for your loss and the loss that your whole family has suffered. Please know that you all will be in my prayers. Please do take care....

  8. Joy

    I am so sorry, I will pray for your family. I can't imagine what any of you are going through.

  9. I feel like a horrible blogging buddy that I missed this post. I am so terribly sorry. And he was so, so young. How ironic that you were going to see him too. I'll be thinking of you and your family.

  10. Joy, I am just getting caught up on your blog and I am so sorry to hear that you lost your brother. I loved your words about knowing you will see him again and that he is with Jesus. Please know I'm thinking about you and will pray for you and your family and your brother's family. He sounded like such a neat man.